dear father.... having staying at home for the past 3 days seems so unpurposeful at all.... sun church day.. monday at home.... tues at home.... having said to do housework... meeting for new business.... is that what i am looking for....

I think hard... very hard.... but no answer... I lost my issac card... an important card for my work... without it.... its like losing my life perhaps.... searching high low for it.. still no sound, visual.... of it.

utlimately... what is my goal in life.... for now?

To get over my MBA, smooth business (oops not my business its his... not my concern), my work, my asethetic diploma, my churches day.... 40days fasting.... all at one go... Can i take it...

I am also in dilemma..... Should I be involve.... as let it be just 2 man business..... > I think i shouldnt still.... i shouldnt.. I shouldnt.. I shouldnt... or... ermm..... Tell me the answer.... father.
Quarrelllllinf with him doesnt solve the problem... but I just fustrated over things..... help once help twice help thrice..seems to be pushing things to me... I wanted to help.... but so unwilling now..... inbalance kind of feeling....



So.. where is my direction? i need guidance, wisdom, knowledge for direction.

I pray for that... hard, sincere.... for u.


In jesus name i pray,
Amen.

Daddy.... How are you... You have to pull through ok...

I know you are in pain... pain... but becoz of us... u need to be strong.... you cannot give up ok...

I know also you scared of injection... operations... and medicine... but this are for you to be healthy.... you got to pull through ok

Father lord. i pray that i give my father to you.... to give him the energy and determination and support to pull himself through all these.... especially he is in high fever and cant have operation.... again and again.... day after day... give him the hand, give him the brain give him all that he need... tke away the fever take away his pain.... i pray i pray again.... i pray prayy to you....


In jesus name i prayed
amen